Keep on Believing

I love you forever and I kept on believing that someday I will be able to love you more as time goes by. I don’t know what to say, because I have a lot. If you ever feel the same as I do, then I would be completely glad for the both of us. Nothing can change my love for you and I will always be the love of your life … forever. I kept on believing.

I will always put a special spot of you in my heart. No matter where I go, I carry you in me. I’m hoping that it is you, who feels the same way as I do.

Remember, I love you!

I love you because you make me look forward to each day. You’re my everything, a dream come true. There are no words to express what I feel for you. There are no songs as beautiful as the music that fills my soul when I hear your voice. There are no roses as lovely as your smile. Nothing moves me like you do. There are no days brighter than the days I spend talking to you. You’re my light in the darkness. There could never be words strong enough to express my love for you. I love you with my body, soul, and mind. You’re my everything.

A wise man once told me, “When it is real, you will know,” … I know.

If I could…

Right now, I am very much happy with my life… Just felt the need to share this to you guys… Happy Reading…

The day I met you was an ordinary day. Little did I know that my life was about to be forever changed. I think I fell in love with you almost immediately. You were the one thing I had been searching for my entire life, only I didn’t have a clue that it was you. You were very different than anyone I had ever known. I guess that was part of your allure. You were so easy to talk to and so warm and cuddly and always said you loved to hug. It was almost like you sparkled or something. Every time we were around together, I felt like the most special person on Earth. At times, you made me feel like a prince. I could not believe I had lived my entire life without you. I totally adored you and admired you for what you had overcome in your life. I wanted to be with you for all eternity, growing with you, and building a life for us together.

My family accepted you, your family accepted me and we all loved each other. We went through so much together false accusations, you had your job, and many more things. I loved you so much that I would have spent every second of every minute of every hour for the rest of my life trying to make you happy. I thought you loved me too. I really did.

It suddenly seemed like I had a beautiful and bright future with the one person in my life who had made me feel special and very much loved. I trusted you with every secret, every feeling, every part of my soul.

I looked forward to every sunrise because I knew you were on the same planet I was and that you were mine.

Until that day, the day you started pulling back. Then it got worse and worse.

I did everything I could to hold onto you. Everything I could imagine. I did things I couldn’t have imagined had I not been so hurt and in so much pain. Gosh, I loved you so much! I told you exactly how I felt about you and that I couldn’t live with the thought that you would not be part of my future. I needed you and loved you so much. I thought we were soulmates. I created my future and put it in a big beautiful fluffy bubble. Everything I had wished for my entire life that I felt would make me happy was in that bubble, including you. For things not to work out between us meant my whole bubble would burst.

I can’t tell you the shock and grief I have went through these past few years. Suddenly, I had no future. I only had memories of one person who could make me feel the way you did. I am so lost. I miss your touch, the way it felt when you kissed me and hugged, the way I felt every time I saw you. It was as if the whole world lit up when you walked into a room. You were the very essence of my being. Now, I feel totally empty and lost. You have said and done many, many hurtful things to me. Somehow though, that little spark of magic you brought into my life is still flickering. I still love you with all my heart and miss you every second of every day.

You are the first thing I think of in the morning and the last thing I think of at night. You meant everything to me. I couldn’t even begin to tell you how difficult and heartbreaking this past few years have been.

I would not wish this pain on anyone.

This has been the worst time of my life. I still long for you. Some days are better than others now, I must admit, but tonight is not one of those times. I don’t know what it is tonight. It is almost as if I can still feel you here.

I wish I could understand why you left me. I wish I could have had a chance to change your feelings. I know that you care about me. I can still tell.

Perfect love is accepting the imperfection

Someone wrote this on my college yearbook;

“… is a hopeless romantic. He sees through everything and composes verses in his mind. He talks about the great passions and immersed in them. He is a poet mincing words, evoking feelings, hiding himself…”

A hopeless romantic? It was not because there was an object of beauty that I desired, but because I believe in the ideals of perfect love. Along with it is the perfect timing, the perfect person, at the perfect place. So I just kept to myself the identity of my crushes and made understatements in uttering my admiration.

When asked the question: When are you going to have a girlfriend? My usual reply: In the right time. But at the back of my head, I feared that the right time had already happened, and I let it slip away. I don’t want to undergo the pain of rejection, or being forced to love someone who first loved me. So I waited.

Someone said that one of the mistakes of young men is that they I idolized love too much. Perhaps, there is some truth to it.

Then the right time came, and the right person suddenly appeared in my life. From friends to lovers, we became. I learned that perfect love is when you accept the imperfection, and love him or her just the same. The perfect timing happens every time you show love and care.

When I Was In Love With You

OH, when I was in love with you,
Then I was clean and brave,
And miles around the wonder grew
How well did I behave.

And now the fancy passes by,
And nothing will remain,
And miles around they ’ll say that I
Am quite myself again.

XVIII. Oh, when I was in love with you
Alfred Edward Housman (1859–1936). from A Shropshire Lad. 1896.

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I remembered a classmate back in high school who was courting one of the prettiest girls in our 2nd year class. We were amazed at how behaved he was. We all knew he’s one of the class jesters. But this time, he was dead serious. Gone are the usual jokes. He said he wanted to look his best to impress the girl.

We just played along and let him do his stuff. But it’s kind of weird not seeing him laughing and making jokes here and there. His grooming improved. His curly hair seemed to be in a good place. His moves were carefully done. He looked like a real gentleman with the girl.

A few weeks passed and he was no longer with her. He arrived to class late and with uncombed hair. We asked him what happened. “We broke up” he curtly said. “I don’t want to talk about it”.

And so be it. We were glad he was back to his normal self again. His sense of humor returned to him, and we again enjoyed his company. But I haven’t heard anything about his love life after that, even years after we graduated from high school.

She Think Her Boyfriend Still Has A Feelings to His Ex-Girlfriend!

As I read this letter of shona I really felt something because she reminds me someone I know at the same situation…oh well let me share her letter, and to all people out there who want to give her some advice just comment to this post!

Well I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 months now, we have a very open relationship. And close to the beginning of our relationship we had a conversation about past relationships and he told me about 1 in particular where he ended up falling in love. At the time it didn’t bother me because that was then and this is now. He tells me that he still loves her BUT not the same way he did before. In other words he doesn’t want to be with her but he does still love her. And I want to believe him but something tells me that I’d be stupid to do so. He says he’s in love with me and wants to be with me and I feel the same way but I can’t help but to also feel as if I only have half of him, you know? Like as if I am somewhat sharing him. Not physically but emotionally & mentally. I feel as if somewhere deep down in him he still wants to be with her because every time we get on the subject of her I can somewhat hear it in the tone of his voice & something tells me that if she was to come back right now like today and they started talking more often and then the second she says something like, “I’m still in love with you take me back” or anything along those lines, something tells me that he’ll leave me as quick as a flash for her. I don’t know why I feel that way but I do. I don’t want to but it’s just a feeling that just wont go away. As far as I know, him and his ex-girlfriend or “best friend”,as he calls her, rarely talk to each other so that’s the up side but that’s really not the point. I’ve been praying, asking & seeking answers for all of this and so far I’ve gotten nothing. I don’t know what to do, just thinking about this has caused me so much stress and lose of sleep and can’t even concentrate in other things sometimes because of this. Don’t get me wrong, he is an excellent boyfriend, treats me well, respects me as a woman, loves & cares for me & is always honest. But,  I just can’t seem to shake off the thought that he may still secretly want to be with his ex-girlfriend. It has even gotten to the point where I feel like I need to leave him because all of this has caused so much heartache already and sitting around waiting for it to blow up in my face will be too much to bare. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone have any advice for me? Assurance? Anything? I believe I should leave him but then again something tells me I’d be making a mistake if I do. I love him I really really truly do and he says he feels the same but if his ex was to return would all of that change? I mean like, would you personally leave someone you love for your ex-lover? If you’ve ever fallen in love more than once and the person who you were currently in love with/dating/been together for 5 months or even more and your first love comes back to you asking you to take them back, would you? If yes, why? If no, why? Do you think my boyfriend would leave me for his ex? I know this is long and I know I’ve asked a lot of questions but I really needed to get this out and I reeeally need some answers. Thank you for taking the time out to read and post  this I grrrreatly appreciate it Smiley.

Shona…

Your  bf still reminisced his ex, but that ain’t mean he wants her again believe me, because if he does, he wont have come for you or still stick around till date, my advise is that you try as much as possible to let that thought off your head because they say that “whatever we think is what eventually happens,even though they may not have been designed that way”-this i call the power of our thoughts. Human were never made robot, we have feelings, and those feelings always play back thru’ our memories, the fact there is that yeah though he still has a feeling for his ex doesn’t mean he still wants her.. Don’t be paranoid!

Love? or Friendship?

It really makes us wonder why the people we like only as friends are the ones who show interest in us and those we like treat us only as friends.

Why can’t we just like somebody who will also feel the same way for us?

It doesn’t always happen that way and that is the reason why people who fall in love get hurt.

They allow themselves to get emotionally attached to a person and they begin to expect that they will be treated differently from the others.

But more often than not, we are attracted to a person who probably wants to have us only as a friend, and nothing more.

There’s nothing wrong with this, but it is sometimes hard to interpret the meaning of one’s actions.

The problem lies with the fact that we have special feelings for that person, and most of the time we put so much meaning in the way they treat us, when the truth is we are just friends.

We go one step ahead of the real relationship, and begin to expect something to come out. Then, we disappoint ourselves when we realize that there were no special feelings all along.

It was simply a beautiful story of friendship.

The truth hurts but it is the only thing that can set us free.

If your friendship means a lot to you, then you just have to accept the fact that you cannot feel otherwise for them.

You have to treat them only as friends and nothing more.

There’s anything wrong in telling them how you really feel, but don’t expect anything in return and don’t make them feel obliged to acknowledge it.

Just let them know so you can finally be at peace with yourself. Let us always remember that every tear of sadness that we shed for a person we love is a capsule of memory that we have to leave behind.

We fall in love so that we will learn, we get hurt so that we will become strong, and we cry so that we can let go and find our place in the life of someone who will love us the way we have loved.

Happy Birthday To Me!

 

Well last Saturday was my birthday and I turned 24. I know 24 is not that old, but it sure felt different than turning 23.I just wanted to thanks to my family, friends,and to my special someone who’s been there for me  always.And also I’d like to take this opportunity to say sorry to the person I hurt ed so much because of my decisions I made,I really felt guilt in that, but that decision made me happy right now Hope u understand…we just a human who can be hurt and who can hurt someone…And Thank God for giving me another page on my book in life!for giving me strength to be strong in every trials and decisions I made. I guess this time I really thought about what I have done so far in my life and that it has been 3 years since I graduated college.And now having a  job even though  It is very stressful and sometimes you hate it, but it is well worth it in the end..So far in these 24 years I think I have accomplished a lot! In fact I can truly say that my life as it is now is the happiest that its ever been. Even though a lot of problems came to my life this past few months, and now trying to move on and catch up in everything. But  I have No regrets about being the person I am today. Moving forward is pretty easy. Not that you have much choice – its either forward or stop and I’m not keen on the second option. So forward I go. I’m Happy with my life now as long as I continue to learn and to grow. I’m also very content as long as I continue trying something new. Still I know there are a lot of things that I have not yet accomplished that I hope to in the next few years.

I wish many many more Birthday to come so that others have time to appreciate me as much as I do.!

 

If I Were A Boy (Lyrics)

If  I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Cause they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it’s just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (Yeah, you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Im not a big fan of Beyonce but I like this song.!This song puts me in neither a more positive, nor negative direction. It sounds nice, and the lyrics sound sincere. And to whoever said “You’re a girl, that’s what your parents wanted” needs to go back and read the lyrics another round… she’s speaking metaphorically. That as to some man in a past relationship, she would’ve made better choices and been more respectful. .Its not so much as an insult to guys. Its just the point that we all view things differently. But I agree that not all men are like this song. but the minority spoil it for the majority.

Birthday Thoughts For Ruby Rose!

Of all that makes you YOU.
Count a blessing for each candle
Have your cake and eat it too!

Unwrap this day and savor it
And all the love that’s there.
Send a dream-wish straight to
Heaven on the wings of prayer.

Remember what a blessing you are
Even after this day is gone.
You’re a gem, a priceless treasure
Let yourself shine on!

Your Birthday isn’t just a day
That comes and hurries by-
It’s a time to think of things
We’ve shared-
Together–you and I.

It’s a chance to say
You’re in my thoughts
Very often all year through,
It’s a time for me to say
How much I fondly think of you.

Greetings from,  ShAKERuLES

“The greatest good you can do for another, is not just to share your riches but to reveal to him his own.”